OK, so I have been a bit depressed lately, I have a lot going on. So I went to for an evaluation, for what I thought was to get meds to treat the depression. I have never been to counseling before, the docs have given antidepressants in the past. Now I am seeing a counselor for Post Traumatic Stress, I thought they were the crazy ones for this diagnosis. After time to soak it in and do a little research about PTSD, I guess they are right. After all I have been through some really tough patches in life, I have always chalked it up to this is life just deal with it.
I can’t get myself dressed some days, what’s the point? I don’t have a job, and of all the resumes I have sent out I have heard nothing in return. I feel bad that I don’t have the money to treat my kids on the weekends, I wanted to take son #4 to a Haunted House for Halloween and couldn’t. So I sat at home crying. He didn’t seem to mind, he played his video games and chatted with friends.
I have got to get myself together, but how?? Right now I am on my way to the counselor……… Well, the Saint’s play tonight and we are going to watch it at a movie theater. Yes, watching the Saint’s on the big screen!! That’s one thing to bring me up a bit.
